happiness is...

7amood and I are watching Enchanted together

i love life

a letter to my personalities that have passed away

Dear dead personalities,

I've been meaning to write to you and tell how great it is to live without you, I sometimes miss you but el7mdellah that feeling soon fades when I see how great my life is now

+ Dare Devil 7amda, the one who would gladly jump from a window just to see if her 3aba would be a perfect parachute: I don't miss you at all. I took the biggest jump of my life and got married, you died the day of my wedding because anything dangerous I do after that night would be lame

+ Fun loving 7amda, the one who would drive her car in the rain and sing out loud to Interpol's "Rosemary": I miss you sometimes, a lot lately. I miss the silly little things we used to do together, the little adventures we used to take and the little secrets we hid in our shoe boxes. The giggles, the sighs, the tears.

+ Friends over Family 7amda, the one who preferred to share every waking moment with her friends instead of her family because friends don't judge: sorry but you are gone forever, gone with the dangerous part of me. my family comes first, last and only. sorry if my friends read this but you understand why i say this. I love you all, i love you for being my rock when all the shit happened in my life, thank you for putting up with my arrogance, my ignorance and my stupidity. I love you most for sharing a million and more good laughs over the silliest of things. I still love you and love being around you but my family now comes first

+ Depressed 7amda, the one who woke up every morning wishing it would rain acid rain and alligators and sharks so it would eat up everything and everyone around her: how can I wake up depressed when i have two of the most amazing people sharing my life?! how can i be sad when just this morning my beautiful little me said "mama" over and over to wake me up? how can i be depressed when my husband sends me a random "I love you" message?!

+ Crazy 7amda, the one who spoke to herself and had an alter ego named "Davina" who will someday marry Ryan Gosling: I don't think i need to explain that :P

You see dead personalities, you were replaced with others, yes, OTHERS. other personalities who are much happier, more responsible and who wake up every morning with a smile -and sometimes a headache-

Dead personalities, stay dead

yours, not anymore,

7amda
The Mother, The Wife, The Lovers

WTH??!?!?!

an hour ago, a woman called my grandmother's house, screaming and saying, "UMI -we call my grandmother umi, as in mother-, I am kidnapped"!!!!!!

my grandmother freaked out, she called my aunt in Bahrain to make sure she is ok, she called everyone she knows and everyone is el7mdellah ok.

if it was a joke, i hope who ever is behind it gets hurt real bad! my grandmother could have died on us or had a stroke! i hope they get hurt real bad

and if its real, then i hope she is found and rescued. enshallah

random

i decided to clean my lap top's screen with baby wipes -don't ask

and omg!!!

everything is super clear! LOL!!!

<3

I've had a very rough week, an idiot of a doctor told us 7amood has to undergo surgery to correct his circumcision. he explained that he has to go under general anesthetic and before the operation, he has to fast for six hours!!!!!!!!!!! he is one years old, how can he fast for six hours?!?!?!
elmohem, i didn't feel good about what he said so i took him today to see a pediatric surgeon, and Allah blesses him, he said there is absolutely no need for surgery and he cleaned 7amoody's peepee and said that's it. no surgery, no bullshit!

I haven't been sleeping well or eating since that idiot doctor told us about the surgery, but today el7mdellah i felt better. and today is my second wedding anniversary :D

two years ago, i had the best day of my life. I married the person i love, i started a new life and folded a dark and stupid chapter in my life. i love being in love, and i love waking next to the person who makes me smile every second of my life. i love him for being my best friend before being my husband. i love him for making me laugh, i love him for making me angry and mad.

allah ye5aleek lee ya bu m7mmad

wel celebrated today at the Dubai Mall aquruim. I had the best time! thank god we didnt go to a resturant or a hotel, it would've been boring

i will post pictures tomorrow enshallah, i want to sleep

hapy 37th national day :D